Leaving the House
Posted in flora & fauna, life on February 8th, 2010 by emmajamesIt rained last week, which I took as an excuse to barricade myself in my house. For days an entire day. I finally unchained my door to admit a friend who came bearing food and dvds. I got so crazy as to open up a can of soup that had been in the cupboard since 2002 instead of venturing out into the weather, finally understanding the true benefit of canned goods. I can only imagine the extremes to which people on the other coast have resorted to avoid the elements.
By Friday, my body was screaming to my mind, DO SOMETHING! MOVE!
I looked out the window, debating my choices.
The forecast had predicted it would rain again. The sky was dark and cloudy. I was sleep deprived; the roar of downpours had kept me up half the night. I figured I had every reason not to twitch off the couch, much less stick my neck out into the world at large.
My body’s screaming got LOUDER!
I decided to risk the dangers inherent in venturing onto local roads during inclement moments; Los Angeles drivers transform into veritable drama queens when water darkens our asphalt.
I headed to the lake.
On the way to my habitual meditative retreat from urban chaos, a large raindrop shattered onto the surface of my windshield. It immediately became a civilization of droplets. I was struck by the pattern. Then I thought, I should turn back… But it’s only a drop… Another drop fell, a smaller one.
When was the last time you were soaked by the rain?
I realized I couldn’t remember the last time that had happened to me. My heart started beating a bit faster, in anticipation. Why not embrace the possibility of an experience I usually take pains to avoid?
I decided that if the skies should open up and drench me in harmless water acid rain, I would welcome it as an adventure.
The skies held their tears.
Instead, I shed some of my own. In awe.
The LIGHT took my breath away.
It was spectacular – crisp and flat. It transformed the glories of a three-dimensional world into a fanciful pop-up book of layers – the dew-dropped grasses sharply carved out and laid flat in front of the water, in front of the trees, in front of the tower, in front of the mountain, in front of the clouds.
Everything appeared new and special.
Then the crickets exploded into symphony, clearly rejoicing in the dampened earth and the scent of life that a hard rain brings to this town. I understood. And I was suddenly reminded of something I’d forgotten while slouched on my couch, obsessed with my navel…
Nature is my god. It never fails to restore me to my purest self.
When I make that connection, all other connections are possible. And I am happy.
What do you discover when you leave the house?












