the challenge
Today is the first day of @binduwiles‘ challenge, 21.5.800, and I am absolutely terrified. I’m feeling completely overwhelmed by life at the moment. My TO DO list is a roving monster of infinite size and, worse yet, it’s a monster with whom I very much want to be friends. The majority of items on it are things I REALLY WANT TO DO. But I’m tired and sick and emotional and unanchored, all of which has a funny effect on the monster and transforms it into a very intimidating beast. My body is betraying me. My head is freeze-dried. The white noise of the world has become a cacophony of echoes.
This challenge could not have come at a better time.
I find sanity in writing. Putting words to paper – any words, in any form, to anything resembling a blank, white page – SILENCES my brain. It is a strange alchemy that I care little to explain. I’m simply grateful for having stumbled upon the phenomenon. One of my biggest life challenges, however, is letting myself obtain that level of sanity.
I love yoga. I love how aware of my body I become when I do it. I love how strong and supple my limbs become. I love how I can feel SPACE within, and through, me. I love the rooting that happens, the invisible threads that develop between me and the ground, between my physical being and the physical earth. I love sinking into the floor and reaching for the sky. Another of my biggest life challenges, however, is letting myself be in space.
So this 21.5.800 challenge upon which I’m embarking should be interesting. I think it may be all about SILENCE and SPACE. But I wouldn’t be too surprised if it also becomes about SONIC BOOMS and KALEIDOSCOPES OF COLOR.
Only time will tell…
Will you be coming on the journey as well?
olive & hope
/ June 9, 2010well yes, actually I am
I am not sure if I’m crazy for trying to do both #selfev and #21.5.800 or not? Oh and let’s not forget FSS! I’m so happy that we get to cozy up in the same boat again. This is a really good time in our lives…even with all of the struggles. So happy to share it with you. xo
emmajames
/ June 11, 2010O&H: So, so glad we are in this together
Alana
/ June 10, 2010I’m looking forward to the sonic booms
To quote a line from Mary Poppins, “Shake things up a little, what!” I am with you on this journey my friend. I am also thrilled that you find sanity in writing and are willing to share it with us.
emmajames
/ June 11, 2010Alana: I simply MUST. SIT. DOWN. AND. WRITE. so darn challenging!! SQUIRREL! BALL!