So I know you all have lives, very active, busy lives, and you probably haven’t noticed that I’ve been a little M.I.A. but boy, I’ve noticed. It’s been driving me crazy. Of course, it hasn’t been driving me crazy enough to DO anything about it. That’s kinda the story of my life at the moment. I have some unbelievable, KICK-ASS intentions. But actions…
Actions and I are having a little falling out at the moment – lots of miscommunication, the silent treatment, ineffective communication, etc. In fact, I’m feeling very abandoned, if you wanna know the truth. Actions seem to have deserted me entirely. So rude.
Every day, I set out with grand plans. But then I hit the snooze button. At least five times.
And that pattern is repeated throughout the day. Metaphorically speaking. I DO get out of bed, of course. The distraction and procrastination provided by the proverbial snooze button, however, is incredibly effective. It comes in numerous packages and flavors, but the result is the same. Time is “stopped.” Action is delayed.
Which means my laptop never gets turned on, I don’t write that great post that’s been peaking out from various dark passageways of my mind, I don’t visit my lovely friends at the long list of glorious blogs cluttering my RSS feed, my eyes bounce over my Twitter feed. Stories remain untold. Designs remain uncreated. Business plans remain undeveloped.
The only way to defeat the snooze button is to ignore lethargy and to relinquish comfort.
The only way to step into action is to force engagement.
So I’m forcing engagement. My brain is as foggy as it always is when the alarm goes off in the morning. Except that it’s not the morning. But I’m getting up anyway… after I hit snooze just one more time.
How are you and your snooze button doing? Have you turned it off yet today?
olive & hope
/ July 13, 2010I have noticed your absence chica! I’ve been patiently waiting for you to show up, forced or not, I’m glad you did. Big love to you. I {feel} you on this.
emmajames
/ July 16, 2010O&H: And even bigger love right on back! You are one of the reasons I can never leave for too long, and I could not be more grateful. xo
Rebecca
/ July 13, 2010I definitely noticed your abscence but I always assume that everyone is an introvert (like me) and needs periods of aloneness to recollect themselves and refocus and store up some energy. Maybe this is a bad assumption for me to make.
And I’m super duper glad to see (or rather not see) is that you didn’t once say you’re sorry or offer an apology in this post because guess what? We all go through bouts of this or that that require us to disconnect. Just don’t drown in it.
Well, welcome back I’m glad to see you again.
emmajames
/ July 16, 2010Rebecca: The disconnect has definitely been needed. It’s just taken me a while to be in acceptance of my needs. Guilt can be a nasty bugger. And the introvert assumption – not a bad one at all
(spot on, actually)
Julie
/ July 14, 2010I have been missing you, girlfriend…
i’m especially curious about the “Stories remain untold.” Would love to hear them…whenever engagement happens. Until then, I’ll be waiting…no pressure, just love.
emmajames
/ July 16, 2010Julie: “Stories remain untold” makes them sound so much more interesting than they are – lol – but I’ll probably get around to blabbing about some of them at some point
And thank you gazillions for the love. Namaste.
Jenn
/ July 15, 2010Glad you’re back girl. I totally know about hitting the snooze. Unfortunately my son doesn’t have a snooze button, so I have to get up. But just because I’m up, doesn’t mean I’m doing anything of consequence. I should probably do something about that… maybe tomorrow.
emmajames
/ July 16, 2010Jenn: I simply cannot imagine the challenges of parenthood. In fact, when I make such attempts, my brain simply shuts down. Kudos.
Square-Peg Karen
/ July 16, 2010So glad to “see” you. I’ve thought of you a zillion times, but have been doing much less blog reading lately so I didn’t realize HOW MIA you have been…I’m sorry not to have noticed and asked about you!!!
The post you wrote right before this one — just read it too – and Em…ohmyword, I hear you — maybe we can share machetes!! And, you know – I’m wondering what the trick is for how to pull into engagement when we’ve been away for awhile – or when we can’t summon the energy. And somehow I”m thinking THAT is related to the post before this one too — somehow going INTO the feelings again (even tho we were SO hoping to have gone thru and out the other side..sigh)…not sure what any answers are, but my heart is with you!!! BIG hug, much love!!
emmajames
/ July 16, 2010Karen: No need to apologize
I’m thrilled whenever you come by and I’m relieved to know I’m not the only one who’s been a wee bit MIA. Tons of love right back at you!