Here are some up-to-the-moment truths. They are only mine. Do with them as you wish.
- I miss my blog! I haven’t been consistently (or even inconsistently) writing since Jamie died.
- I love my new job. It is challenging. It is fun. It is emotional. And, at the moment, it both conveniently and inconveniently consumes almost all my time and energy so I have little to give anything else.
- I fucking still miss my friend. Every goddamn day.
- Talking about really cool, awesome, pretty lamp shades makes me feel a wee bit trite at the moment, particularly when my friend is now the ashy contents of a vase, wars and shit keep chugging on and swag whores take over Chicago hotels. I will, however, get back to discovering fabulous Pleasure Finds soon because, well, it is fun. And fun is good. See Truth #5.
- My reason for starting this blog – to encourage me to focus on life’s PLEASURES rather than its pain, to wear the proverbial rose-colored glasses a bit more and to approach the world with a “glass half full” mentality – is more important for me to adhere to now than ever.
- I turned 40 (holy crap, I just admitted my age and I’m actually going to publish it – lets see how many of the 3 folks still following me disappear with this admission, shall we?), and the world did not end. Yet.
- I compulsively want to pet my cat. ALL THE TIME. And, what’s worse, she’ll let me. This has been complicated by Truth #2.
- I’m completely single again. It kinda sucks. But clearly not enough for me to want to think about possibly being willing to maybe be vulnerable and honest with someone new. Yep. Looks like I’ll be investing in some copper tops.
- I can no longer do the splits. I haven’t been able to for a while now, but I’m finally admitting it, and it sorta pisses me off. When did that happen? And how do I get the ability back without breaking my hips, or a sweat?
- At the moment, I’m tired, but happy. I need to get a fresh bouquet of flowers, open my mail, do some laundry, change the cat litter, and buy a new pair of jeans. But first, I’m going to watch So You Think You Can Dance so I can do some splits vicariously. And because it simply brings me pleasure.
There are more truths, of course. There always will be. But that’s a start, possibly to a second wind. I certainly hope so. I’ve missed it here. And I’ve missed you guys. I’m getting back into the swing of visiting you all at your virtual abodes again too. It’s just one baby step at a time. xo
jodifur
/ July 30, 2009Lovely to meet you at blogher. I tried to email you back from your comment and it came back to me, I don’t know why.
justjp
/ July 30, 2009I luv ya and have missed ya babe! Hope to see your wonderful pleasure finds soon.
lacochran
/ July 30, 2009Welcome back. And 40? Just a number. Especially since I”m seven years older!
Lollygagger
/ July 31, 2009You take your sweet time. Baby steps are good. And as for doing the splits again…yoga!
Leigh @ compactbydesign
/ July 31, 2009Missed you too, babe!
emmajames
/ August 3, 2009Jodifur: Great to see you here, lady! Welcome
And I have no idea why your email bounced back. Will look into that. We must stay in touch! I’m loving your blog.
JP: Missed you too, hon. You have no idea. And I’m so glad you haven’t abandoned your blog. You have too much to say! I’ll get more Pleasure Finds out soon. Thought it would be this past week, but alas, it was not. Aiming for next week, though, so keep an eye out…
xo
Lacochran: A) I never would have guessed you had 7 years on me. B) You just fuckin’ made my day. C) Luv ya!
LG: Thanks, chica! And, you know, I’ve actually been thinking a lot about picking up yoga again. Just a little gun shy. My last instructor was so amazing and then she moved to Chicago and I still haven’t recovered from the abandonment. Guess it’s about time!
Leigh: Yay! Can’t wait to see the new little tyke! You were busy while I was gone!
TO ALL: I missed you! Thanks for still being here!! xoxo